Soup for the soul

So I went to have a grocery shopping the other day. And he told me that I should start eating real food instead. Well I'm not really sure about fake food because I thought of all these times I did eat real food. How come there's fake food? But never mind then. Anyway, I prep these stuff below. Can you guess what I'm trying to make?

With salt and some herbs it magically turned into this one below.

It looks and smells delicious!

When I'm done eating it then I suddenly remembered that wouldn't it be a lot nicer if I made myself an omelette too? Hmm. Maybe next time.

p.s. I really really love holidays. I get to cook and eat and sleep and have my self at ease all the time.

PB & J

I've started to cook again! Well yesterday I made these savory baked potatoes. Thanks to anis since she’s the one who did it first. And I get to invent a new recipe using what I have left in the kitchen.There’s nothing much in it really. Basically, it’s just chicken slice, onions, eggs, salt and pepper. See I told you. But it is yummy enough you know.

And for this morning I made nasi lemak!

Didn't it look delicious?! But you know what? I only eat those below without the sambal (obviously). LOL.

I'm not a big fan of anything spicy. Not that because after I ate anything spicy my face would turn fiery red instantly.

Last but not least, I decided to put up a picture of me.

p.s. I'm not a narcist. It's just a picture for my mom and dad to see how their beloved daughter had been doing. I am pretty as always right? :p

p.p.s. And fyi, I haven't gain much weigh yet.

5 simple rules for happiness

1. Free your heart from hatred
2. Free your mind from worries
3. Live simply
4. Give more
5. Expect less

P.s. I need to be happy.
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The biggest breakup

It is finally and officially over! I just can’t believe that I’m breaking up with Internal medicine (not for good of course). It was like my first love. I hope I won’t forget him. I really didn’t mislead you guys into thinking about something else am I right? Just to be clear, I wish that everything that I had gained during all those weeks is saved in my long-term memory. It'll be my preparation for the upcoming real-doctor life afterwards. I need to be prepared.

Anyway, here’s a list of things (negative things) that I did back then when I was in Internal medicine department:

1. panic, panic, panic! (I mean like seriously?)
2. procrastinate
3. swear words (and loads of it. Sigh)
4. always ungrateful
5. comparing with others and get really really unsatisfied with
6. blaming others
7. get too emotional and as a result of being so full of emotions is…cry. I don’t want to be a cry baby anymore (do you think I can changed that? I might be able to say that out loud but I don’t think I can. LOL.)
8. complaining about every single thing that didn't quite come to my satisfaction
9. bad interpersonal relationship with friends and doctors. Which later lead to unavoidable miscommunication. Hmm. I know that 99% of the fault came from myself.
10. last but not least, I've thought about giving up soooo many times already.

I need to meditate. I need to improve myself. I need to throw away all those stuff above for good. I need to be better. And gain 10kg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s. my English is terrible. That’s the reason why I always put up my post in English. I hope you guys don’t mind. And forgive me if I did any grammar mistakes. I’m trying to improve here! Peace :)

p.p.s. practice makes perfect you know.

I’m stardust!

“Every atom in your body came from a star that exploded. And, the atoms in your left hand probably came from a different star that your right hand. It really is the most poetic thing I know about physics: You are all stardust. You couldn't be here if stars hadn’t exploded, because the elements – the carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, iron, all the things that matters for evolution and for life – weren't created at the beginning of time. They were created in the nuclear furnaces of stars, and the only way for them to get into your body is if those stars were kind enough to explode. So, forget Jesus . The stars died so that you could be here today.”

-Lawrence Krauss

p.s. oh, I promise not to blab about me being emotional ever again.

p.p.s. I bet this Lawrence Krauss must be someone whose faith and belief is somewhat different than us. Forgive me about that line that I made. It was an attempt to keep the original quote and at the same time trying not to offend others.

Despicable me

It's hard to live by someone who will eventually cause your break down of the century. Name it your friend, best friend, enemy, family, teacher, lover or just anybody that you can think of. It's just hard. Well, maybe not. Some might say that it's the best opportunity to learn and improve yourself from those people. They'll hurt you like hell but in the end, when you finally reached some point in your life then you're gonna be finally satisfied. Satisfied that after all this time in your life you've endured too much of the pain and all that one day you won't even bother about it anymore. Because you faced it enough already that it made you a stronger person for this cruel world.

As people keep on saying stuffs like that to me, can I just say this one time? It's just BS. Call me a coward but I don't think I can face that cold hard reality. And I never want to give it a try. Now, can you figure out what in the world that I do when I come to face that situation? I will try to run and avoid as possible as I could. Yup. That's just me. Sigh.

P.s sorry if I ever avoided you. Yes, you. Because some things are just meant to be.

P.p.s (chicken)
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It's nothing, really.

My short term goal would be trying hard to be a cam whore! LOL. Well I've tried really but usually I'll delete 9 of 10 pictures that I took. Or maybe I'll just delete them all. I mean every single of it. One by one. Until there's nothing left. Till the memory card is empty. Okay, I guess I've made it clear enough already.

But now I'm just so desperate to change all of my profile pictures! Which means I need new and fresh ones. And loads and loads of them. Hmm.

Anyway, here's a picture of me. As you can see it's my attempt to be like Hana Tajima. Yes, I am a sucker for her style. I don't know why but I found her to be very pretty.

p.s. let me say this out loud if you just so kind enough for not saying it. I know you might say something like 'You really think that you can look pretty like her if you wear like that ah?!'. Right??

p.p.s but I don't mind. Hehe :)

p.p.p.s. and please forgive my dull and tired face. I'm not a cam whore yet. I'll learn to find the right angle and all. I'll improve you know!! Haha.

Voice of a nightingale

I am bound to Chritina's Bound To You. Yes, I am currently in love with the song. I don't know (and don't even care) whether the lyrics do imply on my life or not. But one thing for sure is that she has a great voice (duhh!!). If only I can be like her.

Just so you know I love spending time thinking about silly questions and trying hard to find the answer for it. Sometimes I tried to find the logic and science to relate to it.

Let me give you an example. Let's say that vampires feed on blood and the get to stay alive for infinity. Now can you explain to me what's with blood? What does blood have that it can keep a vampire alive for that long time? Especially when they always bite on the main arteries and that means that they feed on oxyhemoglobin(erm, really? Never mind). But when you literally eat blood it will be digested by your stomach acid. And leaves you what? Hematin? Mm. I'm going to figure out more about it.

But for the mean time I don't think that it can be related to science. You might say that blood and vampires are creepy little things which are bound by black magic (and spells, and jinx, and voodoo etc). See. No science at all. Hmmph. Fine.

Anyway, let's just leave it behind. I'll explain about it later when I got the perfect scientific explanation for that. Now let's move on to my other question. The vocal chords give you your voice. Can someone be a great singer when she got herself a surgery to the vocal chords? (Regardless the side effects to the nerves and blood supplies, and other stuffs related okay?). Do you think that it is possible?

P.s. Don't try too hard to find the answer. They are just ridiculous enough already. I know.

P.p.s. I wear size 8 shoes. I have a giant pair of feet. I am weird.
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I want a hell of laughter

Lately my life is like living under a crooked bridge. I tend to get very insecure and hopeless. It seems like I'm only waiting for the whole bridge to fall down on me.

Okay maybe I should just stop yapping about how sad it is. I should get a grip and move on with my life regardless what will happen next. Just endure a little bit more.

Anyway, that's not the point of my recent post. Actually, I found this picture while randomly tumblr-hopping the other day. Well, frankly it's kind of weird for me to like it. Especially there's a kid in the picture.(Yes. You should know this one thing about me that I'm NOT a big fan of babies and kids!) But I found it very super duper cute and adorable. It kind of remind me of my littler brother too. Hmm. I miss home.


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