Thursday 4 October 2012

Neutralizer

I need to put this one put this one up right after the previous post just to neutralize my blog's atmosphere. I know I've violated my own oath by posting one emotional post. I am terribly sorry for that.

This picture is from last night's pillow talk with my beloved Mama. As you can see, my Abah's face was really fresh from the bed or more like a sleepy zombie I guess. Haha. So funny.

I miss you guys the most. Do pray for me :)


Break me

I think that I have finally reached the phase where I just don't give any $#!* that happened. This time I'll just go through whatever this is with whatever piece of hearts I have left. Violated and irritating would be the best words for what I'm referring to. Sadly, I have to accept that as if I have no rights for myself at all.

Mind you, I'm not saying that Medicine is hard. I love Medicine. It's really damn interesting. Studying Medicine gives me all the answers that I've always wanted to know. Medicine is fun.

The one thing that I'm referring to which gruesome and dirty is the hardships of living in this tiny island, this particular country to be precise. I don't know why would they do too many ridiculous regulations just to make sure that we all would suffer. I seriously don't get why wouldn't they just create one effective system and just abide by it anyway? Things will never make any sense here. It never does.

I am currently of my 3rd week in Anesthesiology department. I had 6 shifts for my 1st week, another 6 shifts for my 2nd week and 4 shifts for my 3rd week. But since I went to meet my doctor (since she's currently not staying in the same hospital that I do) for assignment discussion, on the day that all of us needed to attend some stupid event that we never get any benefit at all to be precise, I was punished by adding another 2 shifts this week! If you do the math, that'll be 18 shifts for 3 consecutive weeks.

Seriously, every Tuesday is supposed to be the day whereby every practical students will have their time to go and meet their doctors for discussion. And this is what I get? Punished with another 2 shifts added to this week? Even though I did abide by the rules?

Now do tell me how am I suppose to get my assignment done? When do I have time to actually read a book and study? When actually do I have time to complete that stupid logbook?

Oh, and here's the thing. If you're someone's big shot's daughter, I swear by heaven and hell that your life will be ultimately spot on. smooth and flawless. No doctors would want to punish you or even pick on you and you'll be treated like a princess, literally.

The doctor's world is always cruel. Fml.

p.s. Supposedly, the rules are 6 shifts for the 1st week, 4 shifts for the 2nd week, 3 shifts for 3rd week and 2 shifts for the 4th week. How can I not be angry?