It is finally and officially over! I just can’t believe that I’m breaking up with Internal medicine (not for good of course). It was like my first love. I hope I won’t forget him. I really didn’t mislead you guys into thinking about something else am I right? Just to be clear, I wish that everything that I had gained during all those weeks is saved in my long-term memory. It'll be my preparation for the upcoming real-doctor life afterwards. I need to be prepared.
Anyway, here’s a list of things (negative things) that I did back then when I was in Internal medicine department:
- panic, panic, panic! (I mean like seriously?)
- procrastinate
- swear words (and loads of it. Sigh)
- always ungrateful
- comparing with others and get really really unsatisfied with
- blaming others
- get too emotional and as a result of being so full of emotions is…cry. I don’t want to be a cry baby anymore (do you think I can changed that? I might be able to say that out loud but I don’t think I can. LOL.)
- complaining about every single thing that didn't quite come to my satisfaction
- bad interpersonal relationship with friends and doctors. Which later lead to unavoidable miscommunication. Hmm. I know that 99% of the fault came from myself.
- last but not least, I've thought about giving up soooo many times already.
I need to meditate. I need to improve myself. I need to throw away all those stuff above for good. I need to be better. And gain 10kg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
p.s. my English is terrible. That’s the reason why I always put up my post in English. I hope you guys don’t mind. And forgive me if I did any grammar mistakes. I’m trying to improve here! Peace :)
p.p.s. practice makes perfect you know.
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