Sweet zesty lemon curd filling

Sorry for not updating this blog for a while. I'm just... lazy. There you go. The best reason ever and it stands for itself.

I haven't been doing anything interesting and I didn't even go to any new diner in town. I think the best word that I am able to describe about this stuff going on is what I refer to as the hibernating era. The time where I don't need to see sick people every day and meet scary as hell doctors. I also love the fact that I don't have any night/day shifts for this approximately 3 months. Best feeling ever!

You can say that I might be going overboard with it but seriously who doesn't love wearing pajamas all day long? Well, if not pajamas then even shirt and sleeping pants are always comfy. Nobody can resist that one. This is the time where I can have not only breakfast, but lunch, high tea, dinner or even supper in bed. Just act like you are a lazy sloth who...laze around? Yup, that's quite about it.

No need to be worried because all this stuff happens for a reason. I don't purposely laze around like that. Are you kidding me? I'm currently in the Community Medicine department. And my coursework is doing a research. Research is tad boring and not appealing to me. But whatever. Just as long as I can get the 9-12 pm working hours and no night/day shifts, then that's more than enough for me.

That's what's happening to me currently. And now let's get back to the 'research' business. For your information, the so-called research that I mentioned previously is starting tomorrow. Just for a couple days I hope. Then I can go back doing my business. Haha.

I will try my best to update my blog whenever you know, I'm not lazier than usual. Lol. Have a nice Sunday!

Pop-up bedtime story book

It feels weird when you know that you do have something to accomplish yet in the mean time you do nothing to fulfill that mission. I don't know what went wrong or who was the culprit or what was the infamous reason behind it. I just don't. And I keep doing it over and over again. I'm not even bored doing it. The lazying around part is always the best.

Which reminds me to Google out some motivational blogs or websites for people like me. But wait, motivational stuff won't do any good either. The moment when I finally finish reading all the motivational vomit and decide then to close the tab, that's the moment when I know that I will still do the stuff that I always do. Urgh. It sounds disgusting more than ever when I tried to convey them into words. I must not do this again next time.

I'm sorry. It's so tempting you know.

Peacock tail is never a monkey's business

I cannot believe that my baby sister is sitting for her SPM today! It seems like just yesterday she was just a baby and now all grown up and about to be a lady already. She's even bigger and taller than me. Sheesh. Makes me feel inferior. But it's okay, to think on the bright side, I'll always have a personal bodyguard. Lol!

Living away from home and family sometimes makes me think that maybe the real children of my parents are just my 4 younger sisters and brothers. Compare to them, I'm the only one who treats my home as an R&R. Blame medicine instead. Or my benefactor for throwing me in exile on this little island. Or just don't blame anything or anyone. That's the best solution. Hmm. I think I might drifted far away from my main focus of today's post. I sincerely apologize for that.

Anyway, to my dearest baby sister, good luck and do your very best in your exams. I sincerely hope from the bottom of my heart that you will pass with flying colors  Just go make our parents proud. That's the best advice that I can give to you. The feeling that you'll get when you see your parents face and deep down you just know that they are very proud of their child, is always priceless.

So, ganbatte ne! Much love and hugs from your lovely sister :p

Sugar sugar, honey honey

Since I don't really have anything interesting to write as a decent opening, let me just tell you a secret. Before that can you kindly scroll down until you find a picture of a chocolate cake? Got it? Good. Now, the secret is that I know who made it! 

It was... me who baked it, obviously. Otherwise how could I manage to get a cheap quality picture like this one below since I wasn't using any high end digital camera like others do. Pity me. But anyway, I still manage to get this one which I personally think that it turned out quite convincing.

This picture was dated last Sunday, and the real thing has long gone by now. I am not saying that I'm the best cook ever (in a cocky tone), since I believe that every one has cooking potential that can be polished. It's either you are up for the challenge or not. Oh, but if cooking is in everybody's blood, I guess we cannot refer it as a talent anymore?

I don't know the answer and should I leave that one for you to figure out. 

It has been a hectic week for me and I am really gad that Friday has finally arrived. Sadly I still need to go to the hospital tomorrow. But I am definitely up for cake hunting after those boring working hours.

To you guys whom are experiencing terrible, nasty, heavy rain like I do at my place currently, please please please take a good care of yourself. Cc to me too. Bye!

Ad-lib yet out of range

Hello there. Nice to meet you. Let's have a quick conversation with each other. But obviously, I'm the one whom will do the talking/writing part and you could try your very best to be a very good listener. Although virtually I cannot see or even hear what you say, why don't you just give it a try. It won't hurt, I promise.

No, I definitely won't talk about the weather. And absolutely not anything related to medicine. But maybe something random, like the day that I've figured out my new talent; to be able to see clearly who's straight or gay. I think that that's kind of interesting. But not the type of conversation you would want to have in real life? Okay okay, I'm not discussing about that. The more I think about the subject the more disturbing it gets. I feel you. So don't worry.

Let's change the topic. Let's talk about something else. Like...

Well, I've been staring the computer screen for a while but nothing pops in mind. My mind is all dull and rusty I didn't even bother to polish it ever since. It is official that the things that I prefer to talk about with outsiders/strangers or even with my friends only revolves around the world of medicine that I live in. 'Shut up!' as what Mia in The Princess Diaries would say. This cannot be happening. But could I ever change this introvert part of me?

I need good social skills a.s.a.p.

Neutralizer

I need to put this one put this one up right after the previous post just to neutralize my blog's atmosphere. I know I've violated my own oath by posting one emotional post. I am terribly sorry for that.

This picture is from last night's pillow talk with my beloved Mama. As you can see, my Abah's face was really fresh from the bed or more like a sleepy zombie I guess. Haha. So funny.

I miss you guys the most. Do pray for me :)

Break me

I think that I have finally reached the phase where I just don't give any $#!* that happened. This time I'll just go through whatever this is with whatever piece of hearts I have left. Violated and irritating would be the best words for what I'm referring to. Sadly, I have to accept that as if I have no rights for myself at all.

Mind you, I'm not saying that Medicine is hard. I love Medicine. It's really damn interesting. Studying Medicine gives me all the answers that I've always wanted to know. Medicine is fun.

The one thing that I'm referring to which gruesome and dirty is the hardships of living in this tiny island, this particular country to be precise. I don't know why would they do too many ridiculous regulations just to make sure that we all would suffer. I seriously don't get why wouldn't they just create one effective system and just abide by it anyway? Things will never make any sense here. It never does.

I am currently of my 3rd week in Anesthesiology department. I had 6 shifts for my 1st week, another 6 shifts for my 2nd week and 4 shifts for my 3rd week. But since I went to meet my doctor (since she's currently not staying in the same hospital that I do) for assignment discussion, on the day that all of us needed to attend some stupid event that we never get any benefit at all to be precise, I was punished by adding another 2 shifts this week! If you do the math, that'll be 18 shifts for 3 consecutive weeks.

Seriously, every Tuesday is supposed to be the day whereby every practical students will have their time to go and meet their doctors for discussion. And this is what I get? Punished with another 2 shifts added to this week? Even though I did abide by the rules?

Now do tell me how am I suppose to get my assignment done? When do I have time to actually read a book and study? When actually do I have time to complete that stupid logbook?

Oh, and here's the thing. If you're someone's big shot's daughter, I swear by heaven and hell that your life will be ultimately spot on. smooth and flawless. No doctors would want to punish you or even pick on you and you'll be treated like a princess, literally.

The doctor's world is always cruel. Fml.

p.s. Supposedly, the rules are 6 shifts for the 1st week, 4 shifts for the 2nd week, 3 shifts for 3rd week and 2 shifts for the 4th week. How can I not be angry?