new year's resolutions

Overall, I seriously hope that I will improve myself. And here goes my list..

1. To be better spiritually and mentally.
2. Be an optimist and never judge others.
3. To excel in my clinical years. Oh, and I wish for many many many lucks too.
4. Improve my English both in writing and speaking. Not to forget to read tonnes of books in English.
5. I seriously need to polish my people skill. I need to communicate more and try to make friends with others.
6. Be an independent super woman! Yeah!
7. This one thing that I'm not proud of is that I really love gossiping. But I guess I need to tone down a bit right there. But I'm a girl. And that's what a girl does right? LOL (okay, seriously I need to change).
8. Spend less and save more. For the mean time, I don't think I can manage that. But I'll give it a try no matter what.
9. Learn guitar plucking.
10. Eat as many as I can each and every time I get the chance to do so. Who knows 2011 might be the year that I'll gain weight!

Hmm. I thought I have a lot to put into my list. Apparently I could only think of these 10 at the mean time. Never mind then. I'm hoping for the best of 2011 to welcome the brand new me.

p.s. new year and fireworks are one.

the fighting fish

He's one gorgeous fighting fish isn't he? He had be in possession of mine since last Wednesday. And oh, by the way, I'm just the babysitter for him. Apparently he doesn't have a name yet. I'm still wondering what I should call him best.

Anyway, I have a pet fish! This is freaking amazing! I'm so excited!

p.s. I don't even know whether it is male or female. I just assumed that he's a he. You know I love to put all my belongings as a he. Haha!

p.p.s. I know I should put this post earlier (I mean as soon as I got him!). I guess it's just better late than never then.

tranquillizer

I want that peace sign necklace. For no specific reason. Really.

p.s. what if I fell to the floor? Couldn't take this any more. What would you do?

back to the future

I'm planning to sleep at 12 a.m. and wake up at 5 a.m. starting today. In less than a week I'll be entering the practical years for good with 139 other students who took the Hippocratic Oath together a few days back. I guess I need to change my Circadian clock by now. I used to sleep like a baby. Usually by 9 p.m. to 10 p.m. I'll feel sleepy already and not long after that I am the Sleeping Beauty. But I wake up consistently at 6 a.m. But I guess if I needed to catch the public transport by 6.30 a.m. then waking up at 6a.m. is not something that I would want to.

It is unbelievable that I am a fourth year student right now. It seems like just yesterday I've just arrived here at this country. Time does fly damn fast.

p.s. Sleeping Beauty no more :(

a joyous celebration

Meri Kurisumasu everyone! It's a bit strange the way I wish you guys for this festive season. Actually, I got it from AirAsia's 360 magazine the last time I board onto their plane. This time the 360 magazine featured all about Christmas. For example, interesting places, weird cultures, Christmas and new year's offers and many more. I've read the magazine from cover to cover through the flight!

By the way, it said that in Japan, they celebrate Christmas with fried chicken!

p.s. my sister is planning to further her degree in Korea or Japan (both are my favourites!).

p.p.s. I'm just not a big fan of babies. Really.

trust fund

I take respect as one of the quality that everybody should have within their personality. I try to respect people regardless who they are, what skin colour do they have, what culture did they have been raised up with and what religion that they put their beliefs into. To add to it, I also believe in karma. What goes around comes around.

Of all the things that I believe in, I still don't have the power to see the future. I'm hoping for the best that each and every time a good deed has been done, it will eventually replaced by a good deed too.

Now the major problem that might not make it work is that I'm not friendly. I'm a lazy mouth (berat mulut). I talk less. People will definitely think that I'm snobbish, nosy and selfish.

Hmm. Maybe I should get the latter sort out first.

p.s. if I were a multi million dollar billionaire, I would have a trust fund for all children in the world with dyslexia. I was once dyslexic.

love you, miss you

It had only been one week. And I miss all them 4 like mad.How will I survive in 2 years time?

secret and confidential

I bet if anyone would want to see me land on my bum right in the bottom of the deepest ocean then all he/she would have to do is tickle me. LOL. Not literally tickle me tickle. Well, it is just more than a tickle. FYI, I'm easily (super duper) psycho-ed. So take my words. Just say anything that relates to me and have a twist to it and I'll be paranoid in no time. And I'll fall deep down below.

If it's so hard for you to think, let's just assume that I am really lacking in self confidence. Wow! This is one big confession. Actually I do have self confidence but once someone criticize or condemn anything that I did then that self confidence will slowly crawl away from me. Leaving me with none at all. It's hard to deal with my unstable self confidence really. Maybe I should read books about self improvement, shouldn't I?

One more thing, whenever I fall, It's really hard to get myself straight any more. At least it takes a gazillion of efforts and what ever related to it. Then eventually will I gain myself back.

p.s. nobody's perfect. But I consider my self a perfectionist. Funny right? :)

p.p.s. oh, please don't let me fall.

p.p.p.s I seriously don't do emo posts. Just so you know. Peace!! :)

how should i put this?

I'm 158 cm tall. Let's do some maths. To get at least 18.5 for the perfect body mass index I need to have total body weight of 46.2 kg. Wow! That is sure a lot. How am I suppose to get there? Let's say I'm aiming to achieve the minimum weight so that I can at least get the score 17, then I need 42.4 kg. Now the number seems more realistic.

Back in Malaysia, I went to a pharmacy to get some diet and nutrition consult. I said that I'm desperate to gain weight. Normally, I'm only 43 or so kg (now can you see how desperate I am?). But then the pharmacist told me that I should be grateful because I don't have to worry about getting fat at all. Worst yet, she said that my last and only chance to at least to get chubbier is getting married and pregnant and have kids. That's a major frustration! She said that I should just maintain BMI of 17 because that's just enough.

I am weird. I'll never get the chance to be like those girls who complaints a lot about getting fat to their girlfriends. I guess I should just be grateful. Okay then, alhamdulillah:)

Tomorrow's the day!

p.s. notice the small round and red thing in front of that big red hand bag? I call it my lucky charm. It's a 2 sided pocket mirror. Not that I need to use the mirror all the time. It's just that I won't go anywhere without my lucky charm. Maybe it really does bring luck everywhere I go. LOL.

updates

Landed safely in Kuala Lumpur last Sunday. Went to the hospital and met the doctors as soon as arrived. Received appropriate medical attention. Currently healing slowly at home.

Diagnosis: dyspepsia (acute gastritis)

randomn

p.s. I'm always a girl. Duhh! :)

don't take away from me

Obviously from the title it means that this whatever-creature-I'm-holding-on-to is not and never mine. Can't I just steal it? I'm deeply in love with him. Don't separate us. It will torture him as well. It's as if I am to marry him for a lifetime. I love this guitar. You can tell by looking into my eyes. LOL.

p.s. okay maybe I'm delusional for saying that I'm to marry a soul-less guitar. Maybe I'm exaggerating for the fact that separating us will hurt him more. Well, at least I have a picture of me with him for this blog! I know, 'you can't always get what you want'.

p.p.s. you do know that when I'm saying him it means the guitar above right? Yup. Just to make it clear. Have a nice day! :)