That rocky road

"I failed my way to success"


- Thomas Edison
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Weirdly beautiful

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all to short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd,
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance, or nature's changing course untrimm'd:
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st,
Nor shall death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st,
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

Sonnet #XVIII by William Shakespeare
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Honeyblood

Current obsession; big, beautiful doe-eyed life-size doll.

Shirt and jeans

You know one thing about technology, it develops over time. Just see how much we depend on high-tech gadgets nowadays compare to 10 or 15 years back. I merely own a decent hand phone and I've got to admit that back then, I always thought that Windows in computers weren't user friendly.

And look where we are today. I see people with high-tech gadgets everyday, everywhere and every time. I'm not sure whether the fact that I'm working in the hospital and being among doctors and professors is the reason for it. Though I can relate them both actually. But to save time, let's just skip that part.

Bear in mind that I'm not writing a review about those crazy, futuristic, sophisticated, out-of-your-mind gadgets. Not even close to discussing how's hologram could be possible.

As they continue to develop technology, I wonder will there ever be any geniuses who had any thoughts about making happiness and patience as something that they would like to offer? Like a retail shop offering happiness and patience to customers. No other products but happiness and patience. The best part is, you will never have any limit for purchasing it.

They build freaking robots that can dance and talk like human for God's sake. There might've been smartphones with hologram in some months later. Why can't they create happiness?

Wouldn't it be nice if you can just buy all the happiness you want and lead a carefree life? If there's a store such for real, I'll be proud to say that I would be their loyal customer for a lifetime. No second thoughts of course.

Not that I lack happiness in life. It is just an imagination or you can call it a stupid daydream's idea. You know when they say imaginations can always bring you towards infinity.

Wait a minute. Is there any quotes like that for real? Lol. I hope that I'm not losing my marbles.

Hmm. I should stop daydreaming and do useful things instead. I have to.
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Yes, you.

I was feeling a bit blue today. Basically because of the weather, my nose, my head and my warm body was killing me. I know that I won't scientifically die that instant from some common cold. But who knows, anything can happen right?

Back about feeling blue. I was feeling so sick and you know when suddenly all of the negative feelings come creeping inside you, infusing negative thoughts about you and other people. Yes, that part. In other word, it's the trigger for me to cry my eyes out.

I tried to hold that and decided to call my mom instead. Let me share you a secret, I always cry to my mom. Usually I call her and start to cry and all she does is laugh out loud. Weird eh? But it always make me feel better.

And I called her once and decided to cry right after I said hello but she started telling stories and I've lost that urge to cry. I thought I was feeling better. Sadly, after I hung up that nasty feeling came crawling inside me as if trying to get into where it belongs in the first place.

So I called my mom for the second consecutive time. Guess what? My mom asked me what had happened? I bet she was surprised because I never called her 2 times in a row. I always call her for a good half an hour and that's it.

I told her that I felt like crying and started crying instantly. (Oh well, I was fragile!) Anyway, do you know what my mom said? This time she didn't laugh at me. Instead she seriously suggested some new Japanese drama for me to watch! Haha. She asked me to grab a pencil and write down the name of that drama. And she convinced me to watch it every time I feel like crying.

I stopped crying that very moment and burst into laughter. My mom, she's the best. I'm feeling awesome now.

I got my mojo back!:)
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It will rain

"If you ever leave me, baby

Leave some morphine at my door

Cause it would take a whole lot of medication

To realize what we used to have

We don't have it anymore

There's no religion that could save me

No matter how long my knees are on the floor

So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm making

To keep you by my side

And keep you from walking out the door

Cause there'll be no sunlight

If I lose you baby

There'll be no clear skies

If I lose you baby

Just like the clouds

My eyes will do the same if you walk away

Everyday it will rain, rain, rain

I'll never be your mother's favorite

Your daddy can't even look me in the eye

If I was in their shoes, I'd be doing the same thing

Saying there goes my little girl

Walking with that troublesome guy

But there're just afraid of something they can't understand

Well little darling watch me change their minds

For you I try, I'll try, I'll try

I'll pick up these broken pieces 'till I'm bleeding

If that'll make it right

Cause there'll be no sunlight

If I lose you baby

There'll be no clear skies

If I lose you baby

Just like the clouds

My eyes will do the same if you walk away

Everyday it will rain, rain, rain

Don't just say goodbye

Don't just say goodbye

I'll pick up these broken pieces 'till I'm bleeding

If that'll make it right

Cause there'll be no sunlight

If I lose you baby

There'll be no clear skies

If I lose you baby

Just like the clouds

My eyes will do the same if you walk away

Everyday it will rain, rain, rain"

Yup. I'm currently listening to 'The Twilight Saga Breaking Dawn Part 1' original soundtrack. Well not all of the songs actually. But so far, I enjoyed listening to them. Fyi, I was going to write about how much it rains here and this song, well what should I say. I listen to the song because of the title. It reminds me of rain. And this little island. Should I explain about it some more? Nope, enough said.

Anyway, the problem is that it's already raining here in this little island. Not just cats and dogs, I bet there would've even be raining mackerels and sardines in some moments later. Like crazy rain. Like if raindrops are mackerels and sardines, I would've become the girl who died eating too much of mackerels and sardines. Is it even possible to OD on mackerels and sardines? By the way, why am I writing about the weather?

Oh, because it's hard to travel with this kind of weather. Plus there's some huge construction everywhere. There are just more and more of piling mud and floods. Hmm. I guess I can keep on mumbling and complaining about everything here but it won't change anything though.

I need to preserve my sanity. Ciao!

p.s. Ain't the song sounded kind of cheesy? That's what I thought after I put the words from the song above. Well, what can I say. It suits the movie. And I guess it's just the singer's trademark too.

p.p.s. No offense, I'm not a big fan of the movie and the singer too. Just saying.

Time to nag

It's almost mid December already. I just can't believe how fast time flew and how I ignored my blog (again). Honestly, there's a lot of things happening in my life lately. Some of them even made me experience that adrenaline rush too. But not a good kind of adrenaline rush.

My clinical years has already started and I'm trying to find my pace in studying. Apparently, I can't seem to find it yet. Sleeping has become my favorite hobby for the moment. There's this one time I even slept for 12 freakin' hours. That's a huge 'wow' for me. But I need to break up with sleeping as soon as possible. It's taking my daily routine away from me and not to mention my life too.

Anyway, my sink was clogged since I'm back home. Kind of gross really. I tried pouring hot water but it just won't get back to normal. So I came to a conclusion that there's a dead frog (or a snake or a fat lizard or any amphibians that you can think of) inside my sink. But I was convinced by him that there's no such thing as a dead frog in a sink. (I still do think that there is though)

So I called the plumber yesterday and he successfully repaired the sink. A big yay for me. Now I can wash my face, brush my teeth and wudhu' at my sink. Yup, my bathroom doesn't have a decent sink in it. And I'm not fond of being in a bathroom for a long time. My fingers tend to wrinkle and then they'll look like it belongs to some old lady.

Whatever it is, I'm pretty sure if ever there is a dead frog in not only my sink but anybody else's sink too, it definitely wouldn't be this one cute frog below. I mean come on, who doesn't love Keroro?!

p.s. to you, safe flight home.